A bright tempting light whispers my name
I hesitate
But my curiosity takes over
I crawl and crawl
Until my aching feet touch something
I haven’t felt for a while
I move towards it
Towards hope
The window is wide open
No sign of wind
The sun rays on my face
I secretly hope it washes my boredom away
My eyes swiftly leave the orchard
And move towards a red dot
I squint at a clueless ladybug
Moving across the desk towards
A paper plane
So tiny in an enormous world
Makes you question your whole existence
The bug climbs into the plane
I’ve built to calm down my anxiety
And my desire to escape
Ironic that a bug is living a better life
Than me
What is it doing inside?
Hiding behind snowy walls
Safe
What an impossible word
I’d do anything to switch lives with the bug
Surrounded by the enchanting colours
We call flowers
So many kinds
All the same
My tenderness for the Mother Nature is
Gone
Such as my own bloodline
They’re everywhere
Spinning my life around
The wind appears
Taking its anger on the paper plane
Perhaps I’ll feel the warm hug of the earth
And the fervent singing of the birds again
Suddenly the air gets sucked out of my lungs
I observe as the window smashes the ladybug
Pity knocks on the door
Harmless bug
Carrying the world’s luck on its back
Except its own
The only remaining light in me
Looses its shine
All the doors close
But what if it left the key for the heart of mine?