No one noticed,
The tears that would streak down my face,
And the stains of mascara that would take their place,
My cheeks left puffy,
And nose stuffy,
Spending lunch breaks alone,
Looking at my phone,
As I wasted away,
my body decayed,
Slowly disappearing,
No help appearing,
No one saw me fall asleep in class,
Because I put my body on a fast,
For that voice in my head,
The one that made me wish I was dead,
Was the only friend I had,
And even though she made me sad,
No one else was there,
Or maybe they just didn’t care,
Because they didn’t notice the nights I stayed up awake,
Couldn’t wait for Daybreak,
To be free from my own mind,
Distracted by all the work assigned,
Drawing on my wrists,
Writing endless lists,
Composed of numbers,
Not words,
How did they not notice?
The Warm clothing in warm weather,
The scars etched underneath my sweater,
Grades dropping,
Brain stopping,
Crying out for help,
Hoping somebody would hear,
And let me know that happiness was near,
But nobody was there,
Nobody cared,
Nobody noticed
But they noticed my mistakes,
That one missed assignment,
I couldn’t complete for my mind had become my own confinement,
The bad results,
Would only lead to insults,
Even that voice inside my mind,
That made eating feel like a crime,
Would just tell me to try harder,
Work smarter,
No one looked beyond my smile,
Maybe if they stayed a while,
They would see me falling apart,
Picking up the pieces of my broken heart,
Working long nights,
Giving everybody else advice,
Longing for somebody to see,
But I'll admit I can agree,
That’s the thing about society,
Nobody notices your sorrow,
Nobody notices your pain,
Nobody else can hear that voice inside your brain,
They cannot feel the way in which your heart aches,
But they notice your mistakes.